Showing posts with label buddhist dharma. Show all posts
Showing posts with label buddhist dharma. Show all posts

Monday, April 3, 2017

Were any of the beliefs that you currently hold on meditation reinforced? Challenged? by THE MEDITATIVE MIND


I spent a bit of time studying Buddhism and the Visuddhimagga and the practices that speaks to me most are the ten kasinas.  I love meditating on earth, water, fire, air, dark blue, yellow, blood-red, white, light and bounded space.  I have had wonderful meditations on these subjects especially, (perhaps because I am an artist) on the colors blood-red and white.


But, Buddhism is not my path and it seems that Western Psychologists are obsessed with Buddhism and especially Mindfulness. I really prefer other things like Mantra, Mandala, Mudra and Yantra and the Tantric Path.  I am glad we have the Jung Institute in Los Angeles that does some work in this direction.  I also am very attracted to the Taoist Path but there really wasn't much talk about it in Goleman's Book.  I have studied with Mantak Chia in the past and he comes to Los Angeles in June and I have signed up for at the least the weekend workshop and if I am not working I will do more.  I think knowing about Taoism makes my teaching of Yin Yoga much deeper.


I had never heard about Hesychasm, Fourth Way and Choiceless Awareness before and I don't know if people are still practicing all these techniques or not anymore. I am not intrigued enough to look them up and see.  The book, The Meditative Mind, is pretty old, it dates to  1977 its hard to really take everything as up to date especially the research on meditation.   It seems like many of the IYT books are from the mid-70s I would actually really like to see the reading list updated.  I don't think the reading list should be the same as if I was taking the program in 1980 because it is actually 2017 now and a lot of things have happened in almost 40 years of research on Yoga and Meditation,  I think Buddha's Brain or the Body Keeps the Score maybe should replace some of the required reading.



I very much believe what Goleman said about TM that the mantras are mantras that many Hindus have been using for hundred if not thousands of years.  I was initiated into TM by my cousins who have been practicing since the 60s. I use so of their techniques but I work with the mantra I chose is important for me at the moment. I don't stick to my mantra. And I recognized my mantra when it was given to me and what goddess it was associated with even though my cousins didn't come forth with that information.

I haven't been changed by Goleman's book and I do believe the book is heavily weighted towards Buddhism as I have said before that although I have had some times in my life where I flirted with and even practiced Buddhism it is not my path anymore.  I don't remember reading any discussion of Samkhya philosophy which Buddhism develops out of in the book.  I would like to not have seen all of Tantra lumped together.  Also I think in the altered states of consciousness maybe there should have been some discussion of  Iowaska because people are using that drug a lot now to open there consciousness.

In generally, the book seemed like an adequate but imperfect survey of meditation.

Wednesday, December 17, 2014

Reflections on the Many Forms of Tara

My recent connections to Tara have astonished me.  Could they really be coincidences or is the goddess calling to me in both her Buddhist and Hindu forms? I came into contact with Tara three times consciously in a 24 hour period, but I realize now I was in contact in other unconscious ways.



My three encounters were as follows: first, a lecture on Mahavidya Tara by Laura Amazzone that I listened to on a Friday morning, second, a tarot card I drew of White Tara that Friday evening, and third, an email newsletter from Trudy Goodman at Insight LA Saturday morning talking about Green Tara.
Mahavidya Tara

Reading about Tara in N.N. Bhatacharya’s book The Indian Mother Goddess, I discovered that she is the prajnaparamita.  I have been chanting as my meditation practice for a couple of months now the prajnaparamita mantra from the Heart Sutra.



The mantra is:

GATE GATE PARA GATE PARASAM GATE BODHI SVAHA!"


I knew that the Heart Sutra that Chris Chapple gave us in the “Following the Buddhist Dharma” class I have been taking started “The Bodhisattva of Compassion . . .”  I didn’t know that some people considered that Bodhisattva to be Tara. Therefore, without being aware of it, I have been chanting one of Tara’s mantras regularly.

prajnaparamita


Tara has several other mantras.  Laura Amazzone mentioned in her the class that Tara’s mantra is OM.




In Harish Johari’s book,  Tools for Tantra her mantra is written as:

AING AUNG HRING KRING HUM PHAT.

Mahavidya Tara


I have also come across this mantra for green Tara: OM TARE TUTTARE TURE SVAHA

Green Tara


and this one for White Tara:

OM TARE TUTTARE TURE MAMA AYUH PUNYA JNANA PUSTIM KURU SVAHA.


White Tara

 I have a lot of interests and a lot of personalities.  Tara, too, has many personalities and forms; there is green, yellow, red, white and blue Tara, Ugra-Tara, Nilasaraswati, etc...

Ugratara


Blue Tara

I am deeply satisfied that Tara exists in Buddhism, Hinduism, Jainism and Taoism according to Bhattacharya’s book, The Indian Goddess. According to Madhukhanna (p.30), “Tara was most probably an indigenous tribal deity who commanded special worship in the Northern Himalayan belt in countries such as Nepal, Bhutan, Sikkim, Tibet, China, Mongolia up to Indo-China. The pan-Himalayan indigenous religions also played a major role in the formation of Hindu and Buddhist cultures.” I read on the internet that the oldest reference to the goddess Tara is found in an ancient saga of Finland thought to be five thousand years old. The saga describes of a group known as Tar, the Women of Wisdom. The Celts called their Great Goddess Tara.
The Druidess

Roman Terra

The Roman Earth Mother goddess Terra’s name sounds very close to Tara. Bodhisattva Tara reminds me of the Madonna della Misericordia I have seen in many churches and museums in Italy; here, Mary is The Virgin of Mercy who towers over a group of people that she shelters and protects under an outspread cloak.

Madonna della Misericordia

I read in N.N. Bhattacharya’s book that Tara became known as Kuan-Yin in China, replacing the pre-buddhistic mother goddess Si-Wang-Mu (the representation of Yin or the feminine principle).

Kuan-Yin
This is very interesting to me because I teach Yin Yoga out of the Taoist tradition.  When I began to read Yoni Shakti, I thought, “Womb Yoga? Isn’t that just what Yin Yoga is?”

Kwan Yin

Dr. Uma Dinsmore-Tuli relates Tara to menstruation (p.257). “Tara helps us to understand the intensities of menstrual suffering as opportunities to develop that state of awareness that enables us to clearly understand our internal challenges and shifts. By understanding the siddhi of transformation that Tara brings, we may better access the vast potential power which conscious menstruation offers us...These women have re-discovered that practicing awareness of menstrual cycles, in the form of shifting dream worlds, emotional states and the physical changes that accompany monthly cycles, is a form of feminine meditative consciousness…we can begin to understand how the rhythm of the cycles of our inner world may hold within them the wisdom to unlock the conscious awareness of the rhythm of the cosmos and our place with in it, we literally experience “yoga” because we see our connection to these wider cycles. This expansion of consciousness beyond our selves: it is a spiritual teaching of menstruation.”

Mahavidya Tara 

I have never experienced “conscious menstruation”, but I am going to now try.  I haven’t had until recently what Dr. Dinsmore-Tuli calls “cycle awareness.” I was on the pill for 27 years until getting off of it last fall.  My periods were always irregular and my cramps were intense.  My every hope was that I would not get my period and many times in my life I only had two or three periods a year and this was when I was on the pill. I never considered before this idea of Dr. Dinsmore-Tuli’s that one could (p.258) “have a deep acceptance of their menstrual cycle as a source of spiritual guidance.” I always considered my period a terrible bother, a curse. So I am having an enormous mental shift and spiritual awakening when I read about menstruation in Yoni Shakti.

Mahavidya Tara
Many sources say Tara’s name means star. I am attracted to Tara in her stellar form because I need guidance.  I am not sure what direction I am going in and have made a lot of mistakes of late.  I hope

Blue Tara
Tara can guide me like the North Star guided my people more than a century ago to freedom. Tara is the goddess of transformation and she has incredible strength and fierceness which I would like to draw on. Kinsley writes in the Tantric Visions of the Divine Feminine: The Ten Mahavidyas (p.98): “Nearly every description of Tara in Hindu sources stresses her fierce, often horrifying appearance . . .”


Kinsley continues that Tara’s name means “she who liberates”. Harish Johari explains the name Tara comes from the Sanskrit root tr which means to take across.  He elaborates on page 95, “She who takes one across the ocean of the world of relative existence (samsara) is Tara.”  He continues on page 97 that “Tara is the mahavidya which is the embodiment of rasa (emotions) and expression which is speech...Tantra clearly mentions that siddhi of Tara can be achieved without any meditation, japa, worship, sacrifice, practice or purification of elements . . . The aspirant who adopts Tara as deity is not bothered by any rules and regulations (yama or niyamas). He does not need to observe any discipline.  Remembering her only is sufficient.  This makes her the goddess for anyone and everyone.” This is great news that Tara will come without any ceremony when we call her.

White Tara

Harish Johari also writes in Tools for Tantra (p.95) about the balance of Tara exemplified in her Yantra.

Tara Yantra

Balance is something I truly need in life. I find work takes over everything and I get out of balance very fast. “Meditation on this vermillion triangle, which forms the background of the golden bindu, creates green.  Thus we see that the meditation on the green bhupur creates vermillion and the meditation on the vermillion triangle produces green. This balance is the key to Tara.  It is balance which is tark (carrier). The boat (tarini) is able to float and travel across because of this balance.” Kinsley says she is depicted sometimes with an oar in her hand “emphasizing her role in ferrying her devotees across the river of samsara.” As a former college rower, I related to this metaphor.

In Pupul Jayakar’s book, The Earth Mother, she elaborates on how in tantric texts the goddesses were source of all colors and Tara was representative of dark blue.  Dark blue is my favorite time of day either after dusk or before dawn.  I get up very early in the morning and sometimes the sky is an amazing Indigo color.  This color makes me joyful to be alive.  From now on I will consider it the color of Tara.

Blue Tara

I need the compassionate Tara in her Buddhist form to help me through my confusion of what to do with my life. She is said according to Kinsley (p. 166) rescues devotees from “desperate predicaments as being lost in an impenetrable forest, foundering in a storm at sea, being under threat of imminent execution, or being trapped and bound in prison.” I love the idea I read in Kinsley’s book that the Avalokitesvara sheds a tear of compassion for all beings and the tear becomes Tara.


Blue Tara


I need Tara in her Hindu form to purify me and help me move on and transform. “Tara . . . represents the final destructive but purifying force that marks the transition from life to death or from one type of existence to another.” (Kinsley, Tantric Visions of the Divine Feminine: The Ten Mahavidyas, p.103)

Kwan Yin

I relate to the last stanza of the Ramprasad’s poem “Please be gracious to the singer of this song”

Most compassionate Ma Tara!
You who bear all beings tenderly to truth!
Your feet of wisdom are the only vessel that can sail
Across this terrible sea of birth and death




This is how I feel sometimes.  I need a mother’s compassion.  I need forgiveness. I need to be brought tenderly to truth for my actions.  Sailing through the sea of birth and death for this whole life sometimes seems pointless and terribly difficult.  Tara with her indigo sky and prajnaparamita mantra help me to continue.


GATE GATE PARAM GATE PARA GATE PARASAM GATE BODHI SVAHA!


My favorite translation:
(Going, going, going on beyond, always going on beyond, always becoming Tara).


prajnaparamita

AUM

Friday, October 10, 2014

10 Kasinas

In Buddhism, Kasina refers to a class of basic visual objects of meditation. There are ten kasiṇa mentioned in the Pali Tipitaka:  Through focus on the 10 kasinas you understand how everything works.  It is said that all buddhism is in the kasinas


  1. earth (paṭhavī kasiṇa),
  2. water (āpo kasiṇa), divine eye
  3. fire (tejo kasiṇa),
  4. air, wind (vāyo kasiṇa),
  5. blue, green (nīla kasiṇa),  Attainment of liberation by the beautiful
  6. yellow (pīta kasiṇa), Liberation by the beautiful at the moment of aesthetic experience that sets us free
  7. red (lohita kasiṇa),
  8. white (odāta kasiṇa),
  9. enclosed space, hole, aperture (ākāsa kasiṇa),
  10. bright light (āloka kasiṇa). creates luminous forms

The earth touching buddha is about doing the earth kasina



Saturday, September 13, 2014

Meditation on the Color White

We meditated on the color white in Buddhist Dharma class and I just strung together free associations in my mind like a I was surrealist.

my mother's pearls I played with as a child


my grandmother's hair she wouldn't let me brush



clouds seen from an airplane window



a cow skull that Georgia O'Keefe would paint


sea foam

ocean waves

The white T shirt my love wore that night in the tent

My boyfriend in college's hip that reminded me of a bar of soap


white sheets


Buddhist Dharma - Mahayana

Chris Chapple talked about Nagarjuna in class.  He was the great seminal thinker of Mahayana Buddhism. He thought a lot about impermanence (anitya), He wanted to move away from complexity to emptiness (sunyata).violence

He talked about the Binary: Good vs Evil.  The binary pushes us towards violence.  Instead he spoke of the quadranerary model

1. Sunyata (language)
2. Karuna (cultivation of karuna, I am going to end suffering of all beings)
3. Samsara=Nirvana
4. Bodhhisattva Cow

The Mahayana represents a huge shift in the task of the monasticism with the inclusion of the community.  The first 600 years of Buddhism, Buddhist were all monks and nuns.  But now, why exclude lay people.

Robert Thurman's 1st book was on Vilmalkirti.  Now, the life of a lay person doesn't differ from the life of a monk.  We are all called to a higher degree of sila because we are not sheltered from people who do not share our vow.

Theraveda Buddhism was in South India until 400 years ago.  There is a huge geographical divide in Buddhism. Tibetan's criticized the Hinyana by saying they don't understand emptiness and they don't have compassion.

So what has happening that spurred the Mahayana?  Around 100 CE was the peak of Roman trade in India.  There was a cosmpolitanism.

The Boddhisatva vow may be influenced by Messianic influences.

Theravada is the one surviving schools of 18 schools.

For some reason I have the quote "Beautiful art reminds us of our best self."

Grasper
Grasping - Only by emtpying our grasping can we be of service to others.
Grasper

When a tile breaks a piece of everyone's heart breaks.

Out of fragility of presence arises karuna.

Samurtti satya - conventional truth - samsara
Paramartha satya - absolute trutch - nirvana

But the can't be separated. Only the unenlightened think there is enlightenment.


Tuesday, August 26, 2014

Studies in Buddhist Dharma - Mahayana - August 24 - Not I, not me, Not mine

I am not sure if these notes will make sense.  Much of this lecture was over my head.

The Mahayana emerged around the 1st century (at this point we are already 600 years into Buddhism).

Again Chris did a lot of talking about morality.  He talked about when 7 year old boys go to the monastery



they are taught
1) don't hurt things
2) don't tell lies
3) don't steal
4) no inappropriate sexual behavior
5) no intoxicants

Human nature tends toward the good and the beautiful but hatred, delusion and greed are lurking.

sila (morality)
hri (heart)

true sila and hri arise from the heart

There is a moral inventory to be taken everyday

naham nasmi na me

I am not a subject
I am not a predicate
Nothing belongs to me

1st paramita/parami is dana (the giving of self)

na me = I will not own anything

The job of the sangha is the physical provision of material gifts

Vimalakirti said "The quality of my meditation is not diminished by the lifestyle that I lead>"
Vilmalakirti

Our reality is inseparable from our structuring of reality through language.
Nagarjuna

Nagarjuna
- grasper
- grasping
- grasped

Tapas are austerities that reconfigure the relationship of I (such as fasting and silent retreat)

Try to not use I or Me.


Asat_ nonexistence,

?  What was before Chaos?
? What was there before water covered all things

14,000 years ago there was an incredible flood and we lost memory

Joan Halifax book The Fruitful Darkness

Dualism in religion

CC asserts Zoastrianism a dualism religion greatly influences the Hebrews during the Babylonian Exile
.  CC mentions Nieztche and his work Thus Spoke Zarathustra.
Zarathustra
 Ideas of good and evil, heaven and will and a final apocalypse or dualism ideas

Indian religions are not binary - things exists in triplets and quadranaries


asti nasti
nasti nasti
asti nasti nasti
asti nasti

That which we think exists is not
to say that things do not exist is not the case
Existence and no existence is not
Yet there is nothing other than existence and non existence

Then red meditated on red

I saw my mothers's lipstick



, a bathing suit I use to love and imagined swimming at Beachcombers
, the red under the nose
painting by Richard Schmidt
and in the ear
Painting by Sargeant
, the burnt sienna of the buildings in sienna