The Unadorned Thread - Sutras 1.1 - 1.4 - What's it all about Patanjali?

Question: Read the translations and commentaries for Sutras I.1 – I.4 and answer the following
questions:
- What is your understanding of the meaning and purpose of the first four Sutras?
- Did this assignment confirm or change ideas and beliefs held previously?
- Which commentary or commentaries did you find most enlightening and helpful?

My first encounter with the Yoga Sutras was in a two weekend course with Srivatsa Ramaswami at LMU in the Yoga Philosophy Department. During the course we chanted through the Yoga Sutras in Sanskrit.  We didn't translate anything. We just chanted and worked on the pronunciation.  I love that I had that experience of chanting the Sutras before knowing what they meant or what I think they mean because it showed me how the sound and vibrations of the Sutras is so paramount. Experiencing the Sutras as they are in Sanskrit is an extremely powerful experience.  Although I appreciate very much the ideas of the the Unadorned Thread (putting different translations next to each other) for me the Sutras are not the Sutras until they are chanted in their language.  When doing this assignment I chanted the Sanskrit before reading the individual Sutra to put me into the experience.

The Sutra translation I relate to the most is not in the book The Unadorned Thread it is in the The Secret Power of Yoga.  I want to start there because that's what I relate to the most. Nischala Joy Devi is my teacher and I respect her so much and have learned so much from her I can't begin to write about the Sutras without mentioning her translations/interpretations.

Here is her take on Yoga Sutras 1.1-1.4

With humility (an open heart and mind), we embrace the sacred study of yoga.
Yoga is the uniting of consciousness in the heart
United in the heart, consciousness is steadies, then we abide in our true nature-joy
At other times, we identify with the rays of consciousness, which fluctuate and encourage our perceived suffering

Why do I relate to it?  There is not gender, the language is poetic and it is heart centered.

THIS WHAT I APPRECIATE IN A SUTRA TRANSLATION

1) GENDER NEUTRAL (I am a girl - when you use all masculine pronouns you lock me out of the experience)
2) POSITIVE - I don't like restrictive words, I was taught the mind doesn't read NOT
3) POETIC - beautiful wording is just plain beautiful
4) EMOTION - I want to feel the Sutra in my heart and gut.  I don't only live in the mind.



In my opinion, the first four Sutras are an the introduction to the text and going to happen in it.

1.1) There is this thing called Yoga and we are going to study it RIGHT NOW! BUCKLE UP!
1.2) This is a definition of Yoga . . . cessation, stilling of mind/heart - heart/mind, blah, blah, blah
1.3) When we are in the Yogic State we are blissful, joyful and experience our true nature
1.4) When we leave the yogic state we suffer

Looking into The Unadorned Thread

SUTRA 1.1
I enjoy translations here by Arya, Jnaneshvara, and Shearer

Arya
"Now, at this point of transition from previous involvements, teaching (or imparting) the discipline of yoga (begins)."

- I appreciate the idea that we are in a point of transition from previous involvements.  Arya is setting up a context. You were doing something before, you will do something after, but right NOW the teaching of the disciple of yoga begins.
- I relate to yoga as a discipline. I like that the word "discipline" is there right from the start to tell everyone something serious is about to happen and you need to be disciplined to participate.

Jnaneshvara
"Now, after having done prior preparation through life and other practices, the study and practice of Yoga begins."

- I again enjoy the idea of using Now to show we are in an exact moment.
- I am intrigued that you have to have done prior preparation before - life and other practices
- I like that Yoga has a capital Y
- I believe strongly in the idea that yoga is both a study and a practice

Shearer
"And now the teaching on yoga begins"

- I appreciate the simple language
- The now is still there which I relate to.
- It's easy to grasp what the translator is saying

SUTRA 1.2
I am drawn to the translations by Arya Jnaeshvara, Prabhavananda, and Shearer

Arya
"Yoga is the cessation of the waves (arising in) (or) activities of the mind-stuff

- I like that he uses a lot of parantheses.  It means to me that he is open to many possibilities.  The parantheses makes it feel less dogmatic. It is almost as if he is admitting I am a translator and anything I say it open to interpretation
- The water imagery in the waves it's poetic

Jnaneshvara
"Yoga is the control (nirodhah, regulation, channeling, mastery, integration, coordination, stilling, quieting, setting aside) of the modifications (gross and subtle thought patterns) of the mind field.

- It's not poetic.  It is in fact a little awkward.  But I like how all encompassing it is.
- I am not so crazy about the word control because it seems very patriarchal


Prabhavananda
"Yoga is the control of thought-waves in the mind"

- Again, I don't like the word control but I like the idea and imagery of the thought-waves in the mind
- I like that it is simple to read because these our Sutras not discourses.  And Sutras are supposed to be short.

Shearer
"Yoga is the settling of the mind into silence"

- I am much more comfortable with the word settling over control
- I like the simplicity of the translation it reads like a haiku
- The translation is poetic yet accessible

SUTRA 1.3

My favorites here are Jnaneshvara and Shearer.  Many of the translations like Satchidananda, Taimni, Arya and Bailey use the masculine words here like "his" own true nature, "himself", which I don't relate to because I am not a man.

Jnaneshvara
"Then the Seer abides in Itself, resting in its own True Nature, which is called Self-Realization"

- I like that it is gender neutral although it feels a little clunky
- I like the idea of Self-Realization in the definition

Shearer
"When the mind has settled, we are established in our essential nature, which is unbound consciousness."

- I am over the top in love with this translation
- It's gender neutral but uses 2nd person plural WE which is so beautiful because "we" emphasizes the inter-connectedness of all beings.
- "Our" is also an inclusive word that adds to the beauty of this translation
- Unbound consciousness is an amazing phrase - it's expansive language. To think that our essential nature is unbound consciousness gives me chills.

SUTRA 1.4

Because of the masculine emphasis of some of the translations completely turn me off, my favorite translations are Jnaneshvara and Shearer. I especially don't relate to the word conformity used in the Feurstein and Houston translation.


Jnaneshvara
"At other times, when one is not in Self-realization, the Seer appears to take on the form of the modifications of the mind field, taking on the identity of those thought patterns.

- It's a little clunky but I appreciate the concepts of Self-realization and the Seer.


Shearer
"Our essential nature is usually overshadowed by the activity of the mind"

- Again, poetic language, inclusive gender neutral pronoun, easy to understand yet still profound.


The Yoga Sutras are becoming one of my most favorite texts. I feel as if all the answers to life's questions are in the Sutras.  I hope to make a series art pieces based on the Sutras.


Namaste,

Nya

Work Stress - Working with Jon Kabat Zinn's Hints and Suggestions

Here is my progress with working with Zinn's suggestions for work stress.

1.  When you wake up take a few quiet moments to affirm that you are choosing to go to work today.  If you can, briefly review what you think you will be doing, and remind yourself that it may or may not happen that way.

This one is very hard for me. I have tried it and I will keep trying it but I am resisting it a lot.

2. Bring awareness to the whole process of preparing to go to work.  This might include showering, dressing, eating and relating to the people you live with.  Tune in to your breathing and your body for time to time.

I have been working on this - making a ritual of my morning routine. Showering, Making Tea are big parts of it. I would like to add in Sun Salutations but I haven't been successful at that.  I do sometimes put my legs up the wall while the tea is boiling.

3. When leaving the house, don't say goodbye mechanically to people.  Make eye contact with them, touch them, really be "in" those moments, slowing them down just a but.  If you leave before other people wake up, you might try writing them a brief note to say good morning and express your feelings toward them.

My husband is always sleeping when I go to work.  I have been giving him a kiss on the check.  I haven't written a note yet.  I will try that soon.

4. . . . As best you can leave your cell phone alone.  Try smiling inwardly.  If driving, take a moment or two to come to your breathing before you start the car. Remind yourself that you are about to drive off to work now. Some days, try to drive without the radio on. Just drive and be yourself, moment by moment. Leave your cell phone alone. When you park, take a moment or two to just sit and breathe before you leave the car. Walk in work mindfully. Breathe. If your face is already tense and grim, try smiling, or try a half smile.

The cell phone is very hard to leave a lone because I am addicted to it but I have done it several times since working with this exercise.

I like breathing in the car before I get out.  I enjoy smiling and walking mindful to the office.

5. At work, take a moment from time to time to monitor your bodily sensations.  Is there tension in your shoulders, face, hands or back? How are you sitting or standing this moment? what is your body language saying? Consciously let go of any tension as best you can as you exhale and shift your posture to one that expresses balance, dignity and alertness.

My posture seems to be very bad and worsens as the day goes on.
I have a lot of knee and foot pain lately.  But I will keep working on this.

6. When you find yourself walking at work, take the edge off it. walk mindfully. Don't rush unless you have to.  If you have to, know that you are rushing. Rush mindfully.

I have really enjoyed walking or riding my bike mindfully.  I do this when I go from the office to the stage to the office or the office to the stage.  This has been a wonderful addition to my routine.

7. Try doing one thing at a time and giving it the full attention that it deserves for as long as it deserves, without distracting yourself or allowing yourself to be distracted, such as by incoming emails and texts. Overall, the evidence from studies shows that not only does multitasking not work, it degrades performance on every task you try to juggle.

This is shocking for me and hard to do.  I have spent most of my life priding myself in my ability to multi task, but I am working on this and will continue to work on this.

8. Take frequent breaks if you can and use them to truly relax and renew. Instead of drinking coffee or smoking a cigarette, try going outside the building for three minutes and walking or standing and breathing. Or do neck and shoulder rolls at your desk. Or shut your office door if you can and sit quietly for five minutes or so, following your breathing.

I have been doing neck and shoulder rolls from time to time at work.  Sometimes I use my yoga blocks and go into a restorative position on do leg stretches with the strap.  I haven't remember to go outside.  But I will keep working on this,

9. Spend your breaks and lunchtime with people you feel comfortable with.  Otherwise, maybe it would be better for you to be alone.  Changing your environment at lunch can be helpful/ Chose to eat one or two lunches a week in silence, mindfully.

I have been deliberately now eating at my desk and taking my lunch into the conference room and eating sometimes by myself or sometimes with Keith and Josh.  I really like this!!!

10. Alternatively, don't eat lunch.  Go out and exercise, every day if you can, or a few says a week.  exercise is a great way of reducing stress. Your ability to do this will depend on how much flexibility you have in your job.  If you can do it, it is a wonderful way of clearing the mind, reducing your tension, and starting the afternoon refreshed and with a lot of energy.  Many workplaces now have wellness centers that provide organized employee exercise programs both at lunchtime and before and after work.  If you have the opportunity to exercise at work, take it! But remember, an exercise program takes the same kind of commitment that the formal meditation takes. And when you do it, do it mindfully. That changes everything.

I have gone to the 11am yoga class when I can sneak away instead of eating lunch.  I love doing this but sometimes I get worried because I am on call for work.  I don't want to let anyone down.  I like doing this when I can chose the appropriate day and know that I am not taking advantage of my employees.

11. Try to stop for one minute every hour and become aware of your breathing. We waste far more time than this daydreaming at work.  Use these mini meditations to tune in to the present and just be.  Use them as moments in which to regroup and recoup. All it takes is remembering to do it.  This one is not easy, since we so easily get carried away by the momentum of all the doing.

I can't seem to remember to do this every hour. I will keep working on this.

12. Use everyday cues in your environment as reminders to center yourself and relax-the telephone ringing, downtime before a meeting convenes, waiting for someone to finish, something before you can start in on it. Instead of relaxing by "spacing out" relax by tuning in.

I have done restorative yoga or breathwork or taken a pause or a walk when waiting on people.  In TV there can be a lot of waiting.  I have been working on this.

13. Be mindful of your communication with people during the workday.  Are they satisfying? Are some problematic? Think about how you might improve them.  Be aware of people who tend to relate to you in a passive or hostile mode.  Think about how you might approach them more effectively. Try seeing your fellow employee with eyes of wholeness. Think about how you might be more sensitive to their feelings and needs. How might you help others at work by being more mindful and more heartful? How might awareness of tone of voice and body language, your own and that of others, help you when communicating.

I am working on mending communication with a co worker and seeing the world more from her point of view.  I am been leading our conversations with empathy and compassion for the hard work she does,

I still am not clear on my body language.  I am trying to be more communicative with lighting department by texting them what is coming up.

I am trying to sincerely thank everyone and also let people go when the work is done.

14. At the end of the day, review what you have accomplished and make a list of what needs to be done tomorrow. Prioritize the items on your list so that you know what is most important.

I haven't remembered to do this yet.  I want to do this!

15. As you leave work, bring your awareness to walking and breathing again. Be aware of the transition we call "Leaving work."  Monitor your body. Are you exhausted? Are you standing erect or bent over? What expression is on your face? Are you in the present moment, or are you getting out ahead of yourself in your thinking mind?

I also haven't remembered to do this, but I will continue to try to do this when I go back in January.

16.  (After work) if you are driving, take a moment or two once again to sit in your car before before you start it up. Drive home mindfully.  Leave the cell phone alone unless it is hands free and essential that you make the call then and not later.  Can you be aware of that decision? Can you be aware of the impulse to simply ignore your decision and make the call anyway?

I like this sitting in the car and centering.  I cleaned my car today so this will be an even more enjoyable process.

17. Before you walk in the door, realize that you are about to do so. Be aware of this transition we call "coming home."  Try greeting people mindfully and making eye contact rather than shouting to announce your arrival.

I often take a pause in the garage before I get out of the car and go in the house.  I am trying to make more eye contact with time and not shouting to announce my arrival but it is shocking him right now.
He yells - Is that you?  Is that you?

18. As soon as you can, take your shoes off and get out of your work clothes.  Changing to other clothes can complete the transition from ork to home and allow you to integrate more quickly and consciously into your non-work roles.  If you can make the time, take five minutes or so to meditate before you do anything else, even cooking or eating dinner.

This is something when I have done it makes me feel a lot better.  Often I am so tired I sleep in my clothes.  Making a conscious effort to change my clothes is huge for me.

I haven't meditated when I get home. I usually come from yoga and have done some meditation there or I am really exhausted.

19.  Keep in mind that the real meditation is how you live your life from moment to moment.  In this way, everything you do can become part of your meditation practice, if you are willing to inhabit the present moment and embrace it in awareness, in your body "underneath' thinking.

I have been meditating or at least watching the breath at physical therapy.  I really enjoy doing it there.  I like to get to yoga class early and do a big body scan or just watch the breath as I lie on my back.

Main stressors in my life

Questions: Dealing with Stress in Your Own Life – List the main stressors in your life. Begin by
dividing them into groups, such as work, family, relationships, money, time, self-expectations,
self-image, etc. Next to each stressor, note the unconscious and subconscious beliefs that “make this stressor seem real” and the expectation you place on yourself due to these beliefs. In other words, are you measuring yourself against an image of how you want life, yourself, others, or situations to be? Look for a way in which you could drop the expectation or change your attitude toward it, and next to each expectation, note how the stress would change. If there are some stressors you would like to retain, note what it is you get from them. What is the payoff? Is the juice really worth the squeeze?

WORK - SET DECORATION
- There is no end to the volume
I can ask for more help - 2nd shopper, Set Dec PA.
I can quit the job if it becomes unreasonable.
I can accept there is a high volume of work in the profession I chose and be with the work
- The hours are very long
I can ask for more help
I can take better care of myself and go to bed on time so I have the energy to do the work
I can acknowelge that yes the hours are very long
Because the hours are long a need to take good care of myself
Because the hours are very long it is important that I take time off between jobs
- The expectations are high
I can have my own expectations
I can clarify what is needed
Because the expectations are high I need to devote time to yoga and meditation to balance myself
- Lots of people depend on my
We all depend on each other. I depend on them too
- I constantly have to be creative
I will do the best I can 
- I need to read other people's minds
Because I am not a mind reader I will ask more questions and also accept it will not always work out perfectly.
I can accept because I am not a mind reader sometimes I will need to make changes.

WORK - YOGA TEACHING/STUDIO
- I don't have enough energy left to do the job I want to do at the yoga studio
I can stop working at the studio
I can teach less 
I can leave things as they are and realize the yoga studio is just one part of my life
- I am working in partnership and I don't always have the same belief system as my partner
I can accept that we are different people
I can let go of the partnership
- The location is not good
- The parking sucks
I can try to find a solution to the parking
I can let things be as they are and acccept that the parking is not good,
- My students need a lot of attention that I can't always give them
I can accept I can only give what I can give and that is my best
When I am with my students I can give them my full attention
- I am very tired by the time I get to the studio
I can teach less
I can rest more
I can do the best I can do accepting that I am tired
- I spend most of my free time at the Yoga studio
I can not take on as many things
I can accept that I spend a lot of time at the studio

SCHOOL - YOGA THERAPY 800 hour Training
- The internship is very hard and demanding and takes lots of time
I can work on it as I can and let myself finish it when it naturally is finished without forcing or grasping
I can let go of perfectionism and day the internship the best I can when I approach it each time
- I need lots of money to pay for the trainings
I can keep decorating sets so that I have the money for teacher trainings
I can select which teacher trainings I want and which ones I can afford
I can borrow money from my mom or agains the house
I can do less teacher trainings and try to learn in cheaper ways: by taking classes, by reading books
- I didn't expect to have to do all my training at Kripalu I thought I could go back to Austin which is much closer and more personal
I can accept that things change
- I am not sure I can make a living doing yoga therapy
I can focus on the right now which is my work as a Decorator and a part time yoga teacher and when I have become a Yoga Therapist think about how to make a living. Right now since I am not a Yoga Therapist it is not as important to ruminate on the future,
- Even though I am doing all this training I still feel inadequately prepared to work with people
I can realize I am not work with people and not teach until I feel prepared
I can work consistently in the day to day on my yoga therapy and trust that one day I will feel prepared

PHYSICAL BODY
- My left knee hurts when it is bent. It is the same pain I had before and after my surgery in 2000. I thought I had solved this issue and now it's back
I can continue to work on my knee
I can accept that my knee hurts now
- The side of my left foot is hurting very badly
I can accept that my foot is hurting
I can work on my foot using the healing modalities that I am familiar with
- My shoulders are in pain most of the time
I can accept the pain in my shoulders
I can work on my shoulders using the healing modalities that I am familiar with
- The side of my right calf is in pain
I can accept the pain
I can work with the healing modalities I know
- I am doing yoga and going to physical therapy for these injuries
- Both of these activities take a lot of time
I can do what I can do with the constraints of the time I have
- Being in pain affects my mood and my performance at work
I can accept that pain affects my mood
- My bunions are very large and my toes are curling over which I believe is effecting my stability and balance
I can accept that my balance is off due to injury


FAMILY
- I don't spend enough time with my husband because I have made myself so busy
I can make my husband more of a priority
I can accept that I am busy
- Most of my family is in Philadelphia and I feel disconnected from them
I can try to be more connected to my family using phone and internet
I can accept the choice I made living far from my family has lead to me feeling disconnected
- My cousin, who I love lives less than two miles from me but I rarely see her
I can see her more
I can accept that I do see her
- I regret not having children
- My grandaunt just died and I didn't get to see her
I can accept that she died and I wasn't there
- My aunt is suffering from dementia and I don't know how to help
I can accept that I don't know how to help my aunt who is suffering
- My cousin has a sever case of lupus
I can accept that my cousin has lupus and although it seems very infair to me this is the way it is
- my brother has epilepsy and I feel guilty about how his life has turned out
I can accept my brother has epilepsy and I don't

RELATIONSHIPS
- I have few friendships
I can accept that I have few friends
- My one close friend moved away several years ago.  I tried to stay in touch but she doesn't return my calls very often
I can accept that she doesn't return my calls
- My other close friend moved away this fall and I miss her very much
I can accept that I miss Linda


MONEY
- I am worried that when I make my Career Change to Yoga and Yoga Therapy I will not make enough money to be satisified
Change is always happening in life and it is not a threat. 
The point of life is change
- I make a lot of money in TV being a Set Decorator and that is one of the things that has keep me in this profession that I think it too hard to do
I am mindful that I perceive my profession as difficult

TIME
- I schedule up all of my time and don't give myself much down time
I can give myself more down time
I can recognize that my tendency is to over schedule myself and decide if I want to try to make any changes
- I am overwhelmed that I don't have enough time
I can do less
I can accept that I am overwhelmed
- I don't give myself enough time to sleep
I can sleep more
I can accept that I don't give myself enough time to sleep

SELF-EXPECTATIONS
- I have very high expectations for myself
I recognize my expectations are high
I can attempt to lower my expectations
- I am competitive and achievement oriented
I can accept my competitive and achievement oriented nature
I can try to change
- I rarely feel good enough
I can accept that I rarely feel good enough
I can work on loving myself

SELF IMAGE
- I feel I am too fat
I can accept my body as it is right now
- I am embarrassed that I am not more flexible
I can accept my flexibilty where it is right now
- I don't feel pretty enough
I can accept my looks as they are
- I am struggling with how my looks are changing as I am getting older
I can accept that I am changing and getting older

Balancing Hatha Yoga and Meditation

Question: Patanjali’s Yoga Sutras – The first five limbs of yoga are described as the outer practice while the last three are described as the inner practice. The first five limbs relate more to lifestyle and Hatha Yoga practice. The last three relate more to meditation. Many systems of Yoga-based healing, such as TM (Transcendental Meditation) and Vipassana, focus on meditation. In the book Meditation as Medicine, Dharma Singh Khalsa, MD, argues that a blend of Hatha Yoga and meditation is more effective. What is your perspective, and how would you balance Hatha Yoga and meditation in your own work?

"Yoga, as a stand-alone therapy, has helped millions of people to achieve astonishing feats.  As you may recall, recent medical research has proven that yoga alone can be powerful medical modality for many diseases. . . Of course, yoga virtually always includes breath control, which is itself a singular force for restoring health. Medical Meditation also adds the elements of mental focus and mantra, which brings the power of yoga to a whole new level.  When the postures, the breath exercises, the movements, the hand positions, the mental focus and the mantras of Medical Meditation are performed together, in the proper sequence, the resulting exercise is called a kriya. Because kriyas consist of interlocking, synergistic elements, they are immeasurably more powerful than just isolated yoga postures and movements." - (p.79, Meditation as Medicine, Khalsa and Stauth)

Because I am not a Kundalini teacher I don't use the word Kriya.  But, when I teach and practice yoga I believe in Yoga with what I call Yoga with a capital Y.  In my humble understanding, yoga was never meant to just be asana.  If you just practice asana you are only doing 1/8th of Yoga. It's a testament to the power of Yoga that so many people are getting so much benefit from 1/8th of the practice. 

Nischala Devi on Yoga With A Capital Y

"Today the word 'Yoga' conjures up the image of some difficult or contorted pose. Once relegated to a few faraway ashrams or caves, it is now practiced in gyms, health clubs and studios all over the Western World.

What is being taught under the name of Yoga is a minute part of this great tradition, a microscopic focus on the physical. Yoga in its completeness is a way of life that allows for total transformation.  But the physcial postures, or asans, can serve as an introduction to this distinguished wisdom tradition.  Asans reintroduce us to our bodies.  Once we become friends with the physcial, going inward to the spiritual becomes easier.  Yoga in its completeness is a way of life that allows for total transformation."

I just did asana practice for many years.  I didn't understand (and I probably still don't) the totality of yoga.  Although as I practiced yoga I become more and more curious and started to long for more. This curiousity brought me to Yoga Philosophy Certificate program at LMU.

When I studied Yoga Nidra in the Satyananda tradition (and I am not in the Bihar lineage although I am fascinated by it and would like to learn more) I was taught it was important to do the limbs of yoga in order.  The 8 Limbs are:  Yamas, Niyamas, Asana, Pranayama, Pratyahara, Dharana, Dhyana and Samadhi. 

Nischala Devi's definition of the 8 Limbs

Yama: reflection on our true nature

Niyama: evolution toward harmony

Asana: comfort in being, posture

Pranayama: enhancement and guidance of prana (energy)

Dharana: gathering and focusing of the consciousness inward

Dhyana: continous inward flow of consciousness

Samadhi: union with Divine Consciousness

When using the 8 limb model practicing asana comes before pranayama, pranayama before pratyahara, pratyahara before dharana, dharana before dhyana and dhyana before samadhi.  I try to practice in this way and teach in this way.  Maybe I never meet samadhi but I teach yoga nidra after asana and pranayama. I begin with a dharma talk that has elements of Yamas and Niyamas. I feel that the students reach the deepest levels of relaxation when sequencing reflects the 8 limbs of yoga, and so do I. 

Sometimes, I do a stand-alone asana practice, sometimes I just do breathing exercises, sometimes I sit and meditate and I think all of these modalities are wonderful, valid and relaxing.  But when I sequence with the 8 limbs the benefits are much more profound for me.

Yoga Sutra 2.28

"By embracing, Ashtanga Yoga, the Eight-Faceted Path, Intuitive Wisdom dawns and reveals our inner radiance."  (translated and interpreted by Nischala Devi)

Exploring Stress through the Koshas

We humans are like a lamp that has five lampshades over our light. Each of the lampshades is a different color and density. As the light shines through the lampshades, it is progressively changed in color and nature. It is a bitter-sweet coloring. On the one hand, the shades provide the individualized beauty of each lamp. Yet, the lampshades also obscure the pure light. 

- Swami Jnaneshvara Bharati 

  

PHYSICAL BODY/ANNAMAYAKOSHA

When you take the time to cleanse your physical body of accumulated stress and toxicity, you are rewarded with increased vitality and optimal health. -  Debbie Ford

Stress in this body manifests as lack of body awareness and/or physical disease


(MUSCULAR-SKELETAL SYSTEM)
- tension headache
- neck pain
- muscle contraction and tension.
- migraines
- Dwarfish
- joint pain
- inhibition of regeneration of skeletal system where repair and remodeling of bone can be disrupted
- osteoporosis

(ENDOCRINE SYSTEM)
- hypothalamus signals the autonomic nervous system and the pituitary gland and the process is started to produce epinephrine and cortisol, sometimes called the "stress hormones."
- increased production of cortisol
- increased production of epinephrine
- When cortisol and epinephrine are released, the liver produces more glucose, a blood sugar that would give you the energy for "fight or flight" in an emergency
- tendency toward diabetes


(CIRCULATORY SYSTEM)
- An increase in stress hormones, known as adrenaline, noradrenaline, and cortisol which increase heart rate, dilate blood vessels and, increase blood pressure.
- Consistent and ongoing increase in heart rate, and elevated levels of stress hormones and of blood pressure
- Hypertension
- Heart palpitations
- Heart attack
- Stroke

(RESPIRATORY SYSTEM)
- shortness of breath
- shallow breath
- higher risks for complications for people with asthma or  lung disease, like emphysema
- development of asthma
- hyperventilation
- fatigue

(NERVOUS SYSTEM)
- increased heart rate
- digestive changes
- increased blood pressure
- increased metabolic rate

(DIGESTIVE SYSTEM)
- irregular bowel movements
- abdominal pain
 - ulcer
- impacts what nutrients your digestive tract absorbs
- impacts how fast food moves through your system.
- diarrhea
- constipation

(REPRODUCTIVE SYSTEM)
- reduction of libido
- reduction of testosterone levels in male
- reduction of fertility in females

ENERGY BODY/PRANAMAYAKOSHA

Our breath gets shallow and ineffective when we are in a stressed state. I advocate stopping whatever you're doing for a couple of minutes five times a day, closing your eyes and taking deep breaths. 

-  Lindsay Wagner

Stress manifests in this body in shallow breathing, shortness of breath, low energy, blockages in the pranavayus and chakras.  We separate from the healing power of nature including the 5 elements. Stress may be experienced as insomnia or fatigue

PSYCHO-EMOTIONAL BODY/MANOMAYAKOSHA

The deepest fear we have, 'the fear beneath all fears,' is the fear of not measuring up, the fear of judgment. It's this fear that creates the stress and depression of everyday life. 

- Tullian Tchividjian

Stress manifests in emotional pain, conflict, fear, anger and sadness. We become self centered and see the world as I, me and mine. Stress appears to be a major factor in severe depression.

WITNESS BODY/VIJNANAMAYAKOSHA

Happiness is a choice. You can choose to be happy. There's going to be stress in life, but it's your choice whether you let it affect you or not. 

- Valerie Bertinelli

Stress is the sum of beliefs and though patterns that affect the way we see the world. When stressed we lose track of the witness mind and get caught up in the minutiae of the details. We can't see the forest for the trees. We lose our perspective.


BLISS BODY/ANANDAMAYAKOSHA

Being in control of your life and having realistic expectations about your day-to-day challenges are the keys to stress management, which is perhaps the most important ingredient to living a happy, healthy and rewarding life.- Marilu Henner

Stress is a fundamental separation from spirit. When we are stressed we are discontented and agitated.  We lose touch with our source energy. We have a lack of awareness that we are one with the universe. We experience isolation, separation and lack of unity.  We feel as we have no purpose.

How do we mobilize community support for Yoga and Yoga Projects

1) We educate people about the benefits of yoga in there own communities by going into schools, community centers, nursing homes, parks, recreation centers, and other non-traditional Western places for yoga. In this places we educate on health benefits of yoga for the targeted group we are interacting with

2) We write about yoga in newspapers, magazines, blogs. We tweet about yoga and facebook about yoga.

3) We offer donation classes, pay what you can classes, sliding scale classes, time banking and work trades.

4) We offer wellness classes across, social, cultural. and religious boundaries

5) If  necessary, we make the language of yoga more accessible

6) We allow people to discovery the true mystery of yoga for themselves and not tell people how to feel

7) We emphasize in our marketing and materials that yoga is for people of all shapes and sizes and colors, nationalities, religions and ethnic groups

8) How demonstrate how yoga is a cost effective alternative for wellness

9) We have fun doing yoga and show how fun yoga is

10) We show people how they are already practicing yoga without even knowing it (prayer, movement, stretching, concentrating, etc.. )

Creating a cultural context for Yoga and Yoga Based Wellness Programs

In order to create a cultural context for Yoga and Yoga Based Wellness programs that students understand I believe we have to make a safe space for the Yoga practice. Here are some techniques I use in creating this sacred container:

1) I never force any one to chant Aum or any other mantra. I tell them it is perfectly acceptable not to participate.  In some environments I don't present any Sanskrit even the mantra Aum. When using Sanskrit I explain why we yogis consider it to be beneficial to use Sanskrit.

2) I never force anyone to use a mudra. I explain how we use mudras everyday and show (in a playful way) some of the everyday mudras we are already using.  But if mudras don't feel comfortable I offer permission to opt out without any ostracism.

3) I explain that yoga as a philosophical system and explain the system.

4) I present medical research about the benefits of Yoga and Meditation

5) I offer my own testimony about the benefits of Yoga and Meditation in my life if it seems appropriate

6) I let people know that the can chose to opt out of anything the feel uncomfortable with

7) I present the ancient history of yoga and show how it has been a healing modality for centuires

8) I talk about the concept of Ishwara Pranidhana in yoga - to follow your own God, deity, guru, belief system . . .

It is equally important to decolonize Yoga.  Yoga in the West is a strange and beautiful practice that at times in racist and classicist.

I really appreciate these points from Susanna Barkataki article "How to Decolonize Your Yoga Practice."
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/susanna-barkataki/how-to-decolonize-your-yo_b_6776896.html

"1. Inquire within.

One powerful way we can decolonize yoga and reunite it with its true aim and purpose is to practice Gandhian svadhyaya, or self-rule and inquiry, and to truly learn the full honest, integrity of an authentic yoga practice.

2. Explore, learn and cite correct cultural references.

As practitioners of yoga I would love to see more of us citing cultural references as we attempt to understand and connect with the complexity, culture and history from which this tradition comes. I’m not suggesting people put on a watered down, context-removed faux Hinduism. To me that is not the answer. Commitment to deep practice, questioning and learning is, perhaps, part of the answer.

3. Ask ourselves, and other yoga teachers, the hard questions.

These tensions ask us to bring all of ourselves to the table. So what I am suggesting is for us to decolonize yoga we need to inquire deeply. We each have our unique story and gifts to share as do all the practitioners we teach or learn from. Let’s ask ourselves, “For whom is yoga accessible today and how might that be a legacy of past injustices that we have the opportunity to address through our teaching practice and our lives?”

4. Live, know, share and practice all eight limbs of yoga, not just asana.

We can also decolonize yoga by studying the depth of practice beyond the postures. In addition to asana we need to understand, practice and teach all eight limbs of yoga: yama or ethical conduct, niyama or personal practice, pranayama or working with the breath, pratyahara awareness of the senses, dharana, meditation, concentration and insight, dhyana or being present with whatever arises and samadhi, or interconnection with all that is.

5. Be humble and honor your own and other people’s journey.

When we humbly and respectfully consider yoga’s history, context, many branches and practices we give ourselves a fighting chance achieving yoga’s aim of enlightenment of mind, body and spirit.

By really engaging the full, whole and multifaceted face of yoga we not only liberate ourselves but we may just overthrow this 2nd colonization of yoga, freeing ourselves as well as the yoga practitioners of the future to experience the full, liberatory, authentic and true practice of yoga. We allow our own practice to grow and our gifts to really shine.

With mutual understanding, respect, and a deep reverence and caring for the history, we can decolonize ourselves, the yoga-industrial complex, and stage our own ahimsa, or nonviolent revolution of the mind, body and spirit."

Yoga Based Wellness Programs

"Go out and serve the suffering. Learn to place others in front of yourself." - Amma

Here are some of my thoughts about how do we create Yoga-based wellness programs that meet the needs of those who need them most?

1) We follow our hearts and do what we think needs to be done and go to where we are called
2)  We make coalitions, partnerships and alliances we other people and organizations within the community
3) We listen to people and see what they want and need and make them a part of the program
4) We get educated so we actually have something to offer
5) We don't forget that we are doing yoga

1) We follow our hearts and do what we think needs to be done and go to where we are called.

“Each of us has a unique part to play in the healing of the world.” 

― Marianne Williamson

A friend of mine Freidel Kushman has started a program on Skid Row called I AM WELLBEING
She was called to Skid Row. I am not sure why, but, she is there doing amazing things.

This is her newsletter
http://us7.campaign-archive1.com/?u=6a36199af46ee852b9d0a328b&id=3df6e86fb3

I started People of Color Yoga for All Bodies because I believed yoga has priced minorities out of the classes and people who are not white and super thin feel uncomfortable in traditional yoga classes.

I started other programs at the Yogi Tree like: 30 days to Self Discovery, 40 days to Optimal Health, 40 Days to Transformation, and Life Purpose Bootcamp because I saw suffering and I wanted to help.

We think sometimes that poverty is only being hungry, naked and homeless. The poverty of being unwanted, unloved and uncared for is the greatest poverty. 

We must start in our own homes to remedy this kind of poverty. 

- Mother Teresa

2)  We make coalitions, partnerships and alliance with organizations/groups within the community

They came down on us because we had a grass-roots, real people's revolution, complete with the programs, complete with the unity, complete with the working coalitions, 

where we crossed racial lines. 

-  Bobby Seale

There is a difference between being paternalistic and being of service. When we go into a community as an outsider (or even an insider) we need to be wanted and in partnership.  Since we aren't there to heal anyone (yoga therapists don't heal) we need to be respectful of  people and not think we have all the answers and know what is best for them. We can offer to share techniques, strategies, insights but there should be on forcing, no healing, no I know what is best for you.

3) We listen to people and see what they want and need and make them a part of the program

“Extensive research has shown that no matter how knowledgeable a clinician might be, if he or she is not able to open good communication with the patient, he or she may be of no help.”

I think it's really important to get a feel of what people are looking for. We need to talk to people one on one and seeing what their health concerns are.

4) We need to get educated so we actually have something to offer

Those people who develop the ability to continuously acquire new and better forms of knowledge that they can apply to their work and to their lives will be the movers and shakers in our society for the indefinite future.” 

― Brian Tracy

In order to have an effective yoga based wellness program we need to have something to offer.  I have been working on this by getting trained in Yoga Therapy at IYT and also taking other courses to fill holes in my knowledge.  Being a 200 hour Yoga Teacher wasn't enough training for me to feel comfortable that I could be of service.  That's why I am doing more.

5) We don't forget we are doing yoga

Yoga is not the same as allopathic medicine. We don't give a yoga pose like doctors give out pills. We are concerned with the whole person (body, energy, psycho-emotional self, awareness and joy). A yoga therapist is not a glorified PT or a psychologist we are something different altogether that doesn't fit neatly into the scope of Western Medicine.

Yoga Sutra 1.4: The Mind's Heavy Price Tag

Yoga Sutra 1.4 - Vritti sarupyam itaratra

Here are some translations/interpretations I have found inspiring for Yoga Sutra 1.4.

Joseph Le Page: When not resting in our own true nature, we identify with our thoughts and emotions as if they were our real self.

Nischala Devi: At other times, we identify with the rays of consciousness, which fluctuate and encourage are perceived suffering.

Melissa Townsend: At other times, we identify with the movements of the mind.

Arya: At other times (when the is seer is not his own true nature because the mental waves have not ceased), the seer (falsely experiences himself) as having assimilated and identified with the mental acitvity (or with the objects of the mental activity).

Shearer: Our essential nature is usually overshadowed by the activity of the mind.

Jnaneshvara: At other times, hen one is not Self-realization, the Seer appears to take on the form of the modifications of the mind field, taking on the identity of those thought patterns.

Today I am off from work. I meditated. I did some yoga. I went to LACMA museum with my husband and saw the Rivera/Picasso show with my husband and then we had a beautiful India dinner. The day was good. The day was perfect. It is December 24th, Christmas Eve and all is well.  I am so relaxed.  I am at peace.

Last week the same Rivera/Picasso exhibit was at LACMA, the Indian restaurant was there too, my yoga and meditation practice was there, everything was there just like today.  Last week, I was busy, so busy, preoccupied doing things . . . making sets for TV shows, teaching yoga, driving all over the place.  Many times when I am working, perhaps even last week, I get so caught up in getting to work on time, decorating the sets to please the actors/producers/directors/production designer that I lose myself. I have so many things to do it's like I am trying to run for a train that I never can catch.  I have so many things to juggle like yoga teaching, running the studio, and working in TV I feel like a vaudeville performer. I lose myself.  I am just trying to get through the day. I am exhausted most of the time.  My eating is out of control.  I often am dehydrated. Sometimes I want to scream. Sometimes I want to cry.  Sometimes I feel like I need to tell everyone I am a person not a mule.  It's too much this job.  It's so overwhelming.

I identify with this chaos with the movements of the mind.  I don't know my true nature, I know I need to be at work at 5am. I know I need to comb the script to I understand all the nuances and details to get the set right. I know I need to go to this meeting, or that tech scout, I know, in addition, I need to be a supportive yoga teacher, do my yoga therapy homework, and a be loving and interested wife.  I also need to figure out how to get more people in the yoga classes at the studio. How to make the studio a success. So post of facebook. Post on meetup. Be courteous. Teach a good class. Come up with workshops and teacher trainings. Check check check off the to do list right before the list is written again. And the cycle repeats and continues. I cram more things into the day, as much as I can, then on Saturday afternoon I fall out from complete exhaustion.  Then I get up, teach my 5pm Saturday class and the cycle begins again.

So who is the real self, what is my real nature, is it the one that feels content today, a day with no real responsibilities - the Nya on vacation from work, or the one that is running for the illusory train, performing in vaudeville show. Or is my true nature someone who I have not quite met yet, or I have we met but I haven't spent enough time with her.  Maybe my true essential nature is not a persona but a moment, the moment when I am drawing or holding a yoga pose. Maybe that is my real self.

Am I afraid of my true nature. Is that why I keep myself so busy?  Is there some kind of child conditioning that keeps me on the move. Joseph le Page writes:

Today the dunes are white, and sprays of

sand blow off their tops like breaking waves.

The sea is a vast deep blue showing subtle

shades of its personality all the way to the horizon.

The trail along the dunes is sprinkled with tiny

violet and yellow wild flowers that I hadn’t

noticed before, but now they are calling my name.

Because I have walked this same trail before,

but the dunes were filled with my own

thoughts and desires, projections, fantasies,

past remorse and hopes for the future.

Sometimes, I still find myself identifying with

my thoughts and emotions as “me” and “mine,”

But then I come back to the present moment

and the white dunes, and realize that the

price tag for living in the mind is just too high!

I feel a high price tag for my life over the last two decades.  This fast fast life.  I have chosen to make a career change to yoga therapy because I want something different for myself.  I started working in entertainment at 21 years old and now I am approaching 47.  26 years of being a circus person seems like enough.  I want to slow down. I want to notice the trail along the dunes sprinkled with tiny violet and yellow wild flowers. I hear my name being called. I hear a voice telling me it's time to make a change.  That voice, I believe, is my true nature asking to take control of the wheel of life.  I feel the price tag for living this crazy life is just too high!

A Definition of Separateness

"We are here to awaken from the illusion of our separateness."

- Thich Nhat Hanh

I always felt separate growing up often strange.  My mother was black and Christian and my father was white and a non-practicing Jew.  I was supposedly a mixture of both of them and but felt like a was part of none of them.  When I was growing up I felt like there was no one like me around.  I know there were, but, even people I should have bonded with like my brother I never felt a connection to.

We experience ourselves our thoughts and feelings as something separate from the rest. A kind of optical delusion of consciousness. This delusion is a kind of prison for us, restricting us to our personal desires and to affection for a few persons nearest to us.

Albert Einstein

I was a competitive swimmer for most of my childhood.  The point of swimming was to win. To stand out. To medal to place.  I was on a team but all of our goals were individual goals.  We were constantly in competition with each other.  I felt no unity or peace with the other members of the team. I often felt like I didn't measure up, I wasn't fast enough.  I didn't have the killer instinct to be a championship swimmer. I was good but never great.  I spent much of my childhood in the water practicing. I see myself swimming mile after mile in the public pool at Pickett Middle School year after year feeling completely isolated. I think I may of missed out on being a child.  I don't really know how not to be scheduled even today. I trace that back to my regimented swim routine.

This life of separateness may be compared to a dream, a phantasm, a bubble, a shadow, a drop of dew, a flash of lightning.

- Gautama Buddha

When I am struggling with depression I feel very a lone, separate, like no one can understand me, as if there is no place for me, I don't matter.  When I am depressed colors feel dull, foods feel tasteless, my body is very heavy.  I have been depressed on and off for most of my life.  I have never been medicated and I am not judging people who are, I am just telling my own story.

I have been dissatisfied with my job for many years.  I am very resentful of how many hours a week I spend working. The film and television industry is so demanding with the average day starting at 12 hours,  I have been working in entertainment since I was 21 years old and like with my childhood spend swimming I also feel like in my adulthood I have missed out on many things. I don't even remember by 30s.  I am trying to be more present in my 40s.  I am trying to be mindful and really pay attention.

I had a really hard time this year between May and October working on an exceptionally hard TV show. When my foot and knee started to hurt again a couple months ago I thought: "why me", "this again", my own suffering felt crushing to me.  When  my knee starts to hurt it is if it is separate from the whole body, screaming for attention "look at me" or "pay attention to me."

Sometimes I believe my body is falling apart because it is rebelling.  It is telling me that I need to move forward and leave the film industry. I have been unhappy in my job as a Set Decorator for many years. If my calling is yoga therapy and I don't follow my calling will my body continue to separate and rebel until I unify myself.

Although meditation is basically personal practice a feel more connected to everything when I meditate.  Yoga changed my life but when I am practicing yoga and meditation together everything changes for the better. Despite this knowledge of the benefits of meditation, I haven't consistently meditated in a long time. When I was in Yoga Nidra teacher training (a few years back) and was practicing Yoga Nidra at least four times I week my mood elevated greatly.  It was interesting because Yoga Nidra I was practicing was alone in my house and I was journaling about my experience but I felt a great universal connection.

The main activities that have brought me joy lately are my Yoga Teaching and my connection to the studio. When I teach I feel like I am of use to the world, of service.   I feel as if I have something to offer. 

"Our highest, most important duty in this world is to help our fellow beings." - Amma

When I teach sometimes I don't even feel like it's me teaching it's like a greater, smarter, more knowledgeable voice is moving through me.  Teaching yoga has truly changed my life.

The aim of my teaching is enlightenment, awakening from the dream state of separateness into the reality of the One. In short, my teaching is focused on realizing what you are. 

- Adyashanti

When people come to me with problems at the Yoga studio - and they often do.  I encourage them to do their practice, meditate, journal.. etc.  Just doing the yoga practice shift things.  I encourage the students to come to the studio and be in a supportive like minded environment.  I offer to work with them one on one Yoga Therapy Sessions in conjunction with coming to the studio group class.  I truly believe in the healing power of the group class.  I know that group classes are new in the history of yoga.  But I believe they are very important in helping us move from separateness to wholeness.  It's important to have a spiritual home and I think the yoga studio can be that place.

When I teach group classes I encourage people to say their name and introduce themselves to their neighbor.  I always mention we are a small studio so the advantage is that you can meet people.  I have especially felt the power of a bonding group in the yoga teacher trainings, artist way, life purpose boot camp and 40 day challenges.  I believe in these groups that have a common goal and meet on a consistent basis people feel supported and united.

Conversely, sometimes in the group classes I have felt like I have lost control of the session or the group with one person taking all the focus.  I especially felt lost with one student who always came late to group and then no matter what we were working on the day shifted the focus to her love life and her hurtful interactions with men. When she came in late to a session, the group lost its focus and unity.

I took spiritual counseling training this fall at Expanding Light to help me understand how to work with people in a spiritual way and manage groups better.  The training really helped me to understand the individual session but I still feel a little lost with the group.  I hope to facilitate groups that work in a positive way on whatever the topic is of the program or workshop.  It's difficult when people, for whatever reason, want to separate themselves and need all the group attention.  I haven't figured all that out yet.  But I believe if I keep practicing and studying I will get better at this.

My dream for my life is one where I am ". . . helping people to see and feel and believe in their wholeness, helping them to tend, befriend, and mend the wounds of disconnectedness and the pain of feeling, isolated, fragmented, and separate, and helping them to discover an underlying fabric of wholeness and connectedness with themselves." (Jon Kabat-Zinn, p. 186, The Full Catastrophe Living)

When I studied with Nischala Devi this spring she explained to us some things about the Dean Ornish program that has made it so successful.  The program was four parts 1) Diet 2) Exercise 3) Yoga and 4) Group Support.  The group support was really important, just as important as every other component.  It's wonderful when like minded people or people with similar goals can lean on each other as much or more than they depend on the teacher.  When one can facilitate building communities that support themselves and you can step away as the teacher I think that is the ultimate accomplishment.  Because it is in community the separateness falls away to wholeness.

I believe feeling so strange as a bi-racial child, swimming year after year and never "making it', battling depression, and having a career that has been so demanding that I don't much care about anymore has made me compassionate.  

“There is perhaps nothing worse than reaching the top of the ladder

and discovering that you’re on the wrong wall.” ― Joseph Campbell

I understand what it means to work very hard and not get what you want.  I understand how it feels to be isolated and alone.  Having a testimony, I believe has been really important to me as a teacher.  I feel like I understand separation.  I have been there.  I don't know all the answers but I understand the questions. I am there for whoever needs me.  I will serve in anyway I can.

"Most people are concerned only with what they can get from the world, but it is what we are able to give to others that determines the quality of our life." - Amma

A Definition of Wholeness - "I am whole and healed"

"I believe many people . . . take so quickly to the meditation practice and find it healing is that the cultivation of mindfulness reminds them of what they already knew but somehow didn't know they knew or weren't able to make use of, namely that they are already whole... We remember wholeness so readily because we don't have far to look for it.  It is always within us, usually as a vague feeling or memory left over from when we were children.  But it is a deeply familiar memory, one you recognize immediately as soon as you feel it again, like coming home after being away a long time. When you are immersed in doing without being centered, it feels like being away from home.  And when you reconnect with being, even for a few moments, you know it immediately. You feel like you are at home no matter where you are and what problems you face." - John Kabat-Zinn


I am presently working with a mantra "I am whole and healed."  I woke up one morning a few months ago saying it.  It was on my lips as I took my first conscious breath. The resolve most have come from a dream.  I didn't remember the dream but I remembered the affirmation.   The fact that I woke up saying it made it more powerful for me because it felt like it came from a very deep place.

I have been struggling many years with shoulder pain, knee pain, foot pain, job dissatisfaction, childhood trauma and general dissatisfaction with myself.  I struggle greatly with not feeling good enough.

When I say to myself now  "I am whole"  I mean that I complete, good enough, satisfied, unified, one and connected. This is a move towards the positive and optimistic. A realm that I avoid a lot. I usually feel more comfortable in sarcasm and negativity.

These aches, pains, surgeries, traumas, depressions I have and still experience are my "scars."  Zinn eloquently talks about these scars

"No matter how many scars we carry from what we have gone through and suffered in the past, our intrinsic wholeness is still here . . . we are also what was present before the scarring-our original wholeness, what was born whole."

When I say to myself "I am healed" I mean that I am healthy, content, at peace and at ease in mind and body.  I have achieved the "citta vritti nirodah" is described in Sutra 1.2.  Although I have struggled with injury and depression I do share Jon Kabat-Zinn's optimistic world view when he says ". . . our bodies are undeniably self-organizing and self healing at every level you care to look at." Because I know when I practice yoga, meditate and feed my body healthy things I feel wonderful.  I have used yoga and meditation to alleviate my knee pain and when I separate from consistent practice the pain comes back.

Jon Kabat-Zinn says the meaning of wholeness is found in the words holy, healthy and healing. He describes health as a dynamic process and not a fixed state.  When the pain comes back in my knees, feet, shoulders or heart I am reminded that I haven't been taking care of myself.  The pain is an alarm that I have gotten off balance.

I love the statement by Jon Kabat-Zinn:

"All life is fascinating and beautiful when the veil of our routinized thinking lifts, even for a moment."  I see this fascinating life when I am painting or drawing.  I observe very closely and I am profoundly touched by the beauty of a human body or a landscape.  I feel wholeness when I am making art. As I work in making my yoga studio a successful and vibrant place and do all the assignments for the internship I have not had time to make art.  I know that art making is fundamental to my wholeness and when the internship is over I will find time for my art again.

I am trusting in Paul Coelho's statement “And, when you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it.” The Alchemist. I want to use Art and Yoga together for healing myself and share these modalities with others to guide them to their own healing.

I also work with the mantra So Hum a lot.  I was taught that it meant - "I am all that is" or "I am that."  For me this is the definition of wholeness to understand that we are all connected and we are all part of the same cosmic consciousness.  I have been practicing this meditation for years but I like what Dr. Vasant Lad says about it in the book Ayurveda: The Science of Self Healing, "In so hum meditation there is a union of individual consciousness with Cosmic Consciousness...Your breathing will become quiet and spontaneous and you will go beyond thought, beyond time and space, beyond cause and effect. Limitations will vanish; your consciousness will empty itself and in that emptying consciousness will expand."


I believe strongly that the universe inside of me is the same as the universe outside of me.  I am reminded again of the Rumi quote, "You are not a drop in the ocean. You are the entire ocean in a drop."

This belief that I firmly hold that the microcosm is the same as the microcosm is shown in a beautiful visual manner in the movie the Powers of Ten by Eames.

"At each level of our being there is a wholeness that itself embedded in a larger wholeness. And that wholeness is always embodied. It cannot be separated from the body and from an exquisite and intimate belonging to the larger expression of life unfolding." - p.179-180 Jon Kabat-Zinn "Full Catastrophe Living"

In sum, the mantra "I am whole and healed" has been transformative for me.  It marks the beginning of my own experience of wholeness and unity.  My subconscious mind has reminded the conscious mind that I am all that is . . . I am that."